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Stolen [17th September 2008|10:38 am]
[Physical |MC T 210]
[Layer |amusedamused]
[Melodies |Class Disscussion]

Stole this from a friend's journal to pass time and distract myself

[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo. ( the needles they scare me )
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses ( only when my eyes are super screwed from my contacts )
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings. (Two in each ear >.<)
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents. ( understatement )
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together. (unfortunately)
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

[x] I'm in school
[x] I have a job ( i hate my job. so so so much)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. (both <3 i have gotten paid to sleep)
[ ] I almost always do my homework. (hahahahaha ha ha ha)
[x] I've missed a week or more of school. (mmm sickness)
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[x] I've stolen something from my job (but the sharpies. they are so awesome)
[x] I've been fired ( >.> <.<)

[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.

[x] I was born with a disease/impairment. (i had a hernia does that count?)
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples. (bright green yarn woven in and out of my leg. how wonderful)
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. ( Road trips  )
[x] I've been on a plane. ( mmm planesickness. i have you )
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[x] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (while we were exiting >< gawd we're assholes)
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (many many a time)
[x] I've been to a casino. (Chumash oh how silly you are)
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping. ( Dinkey)
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing Snowboarding. 
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi. (Japann)
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding. (ha ha good thing i crossed out skiing for snowboarding already)

[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship ( debatable.)
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship. ( presents )

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler. (with everryyonnneee)
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't. ( oh yeah.  )
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

[ ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[x] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. ( eh used to )
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. (no but i've taken those numbers from carl's jr)
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar. (but not on internet . mostly)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam (that nasty meat thing? or that nasty email thing? )
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue ( rainbow bitches)
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun ( i wish)
[ ] I am in love with love.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. ( only to screw up samanthat )
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly. (guilty)
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. (helio my love)
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games. (understatement. vidjo games play me )
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

Yay I manage to waste my entire Soc Psy class.

Question: Are woman who play harder to get more attractive to males/females?

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(no subject) [17th September 2008|10:37 am]
had a huge huge huge fight with John yesterday. not sure on where we are going to go from there.
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The days they go on [14th September 2008|0:30 am]
[Physical |Brother's Couch]
[Layer |contemplativecontemplative]
[Melodies |Legally Blonde]

Lately my life has become monotonous I work everyday trying to squeeze in as much of myself as possible but now I shall begin school on my off days. I will be taking eighteen units on top of thirty five hours plus of work, I know that my spending habits fuel my need for a job. I watch some of my friends with such envy when their parents pay for things, help them concentrate on their studies, but I would never want the dependence they have on their parents.

But I feel like my inability to quit my job, to stand up to my little boss and tell her I need three days off a week not two will make no difference. If I take three days off a week I know I will only waste that day frivolously, either hanging out with various friends or sleeping away most of the day. I just feel a cloud of failure hovering over me, since repeating same tasks everyday is not something I can accomplish. While that may be a giant aspect of what real life will be, there is no way I can force myself to let myself resign to this.

Let us tackle another issue of my life. I have a predicament I should have never let myself enter.  Here I am hovering in some terrible limbo where I am completely unsure of status in another’s life. He acts so cuddly and soft with me sometimes, I constantly get asked whether we are going out still. There are activities I have committed and think about committing with him that I should not have especially since those activities are extremely taboo in my mind. Only when I am engaged in a relationship with some do these things even enter my mind let upon I act on them, of course since we have previously been in such a relationship everything is twisted in my mind. I find it extremely hard to say no to him in normal circumstances about mundane things, so when other things are presented to me there is very little to no chance I will deny him. Which makes me feel pretty bad about my self later because I know the situation should not have happened. I mean if we were to get back together it would be okay but since that doesn’t look to be happening I am more than a little lost.

Regardless we are pretty well matched I am a submissive he is a dominant. Not only that but I am slightly masochistic and he whether he admits it or even realizes it he is partly sadistic. He loves to mess with people, mainly me and since I view him as one of my dominants I love any attention he gives me. Recently when pondering on him, on his birthday of all days I came to a realization, there are times when I hate him more than I like him. Of course I analyzed this like I analyze everything else that wanders through my head, the relationship we have right now does not require me to like him. Sometimes I love him, I want nothing other than to be next to him every moment I can to be in his presence to be controlled by him. And yet sometimes I hate him, but in a way that only makes it more gratifying when he unconsciously makes claims on me or asserts his dominance over me.

I delve deeper into video games and passing dreams everyday while my life which is running quite fine by itself falls farther and farther away from me. I wish to spend more time calmly asleep floating in my whimsical dreams than wake and functioning, which I suppose to very normal but not very healthy. I need to take charge over more of my life before the control I have manage to gain over the last slips through my fingers like sand through an hourglass.

Also I need to better motivate to do some kind of physical activity since upon looking in the mirror I seem to becoming more and more displeased. The biggest issue I seem to have is continuing, I start, immediately get discouraged, then work myself into a depressive state about how I am completely and utter unattractive and will never ever work myself out of my disgusting state.

Another thing that is out of control is my social life, instead of completely anything useful or productive I hangout. I leave work every night or day then immediately start hanging out, the thought process of looking at my online class and completely it’s homework which will eventually fuck me up the ass does not even enter my mind. I just answer my phone, text, or call out first which is a serious problem.

That’s pretty much all I have to say right now, my attention keeps wavering to the television next to me which is enticingly playing the horrible wonderful mindless movie of Legally Blonde. So I leave my haphazard thoughts with you for opinions and suggestions if anyone actually reads my rambles.
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(no subject) [8th September 2008|1:14 am]
I bought an Xbox 360 today. bye bye four hundred dollars >.<

Sometimes I think he is an idiot, that we should be together. Sometimes I do not give a flying fuck
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(no subject) [7th August 2008|4:00 am]
 Dear Boss,

I hate you.
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(no subject) [15th July 2008|19:20 pm]

There are times when suddenly everything is alright. 

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Birthday List [10th April 2008|22:33 pm]
[Physical |Chair]
[Melodies |MSI]

Yeah. Yeah It's That Time of Year Again.

Money. I like Cash.

Disney Store/Online

... Eeep Everyone Bought them >< Will Find More Later <3

Hot Topic

Any Game Store

Mario Party - DS
Super Mario Bros - DS
Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorer's Of Time -DS
Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorer's Of Darkness - DS

Random Places

House Season One
House Season Three
My Little Pony Season One (Internet Only)
Eevee and Evolutions Plushies (Internet Only)

Little Tokyo 

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<3<3<3 [23rd March 2008|13:52 pm]
[Physical |Kitchen]
[Melodies |Poor Unfortunate Souls - Little Mermaid]

i love disneyland <3<3

how's everyone else?
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(no subject) [18th December 2007|4:23 am]
i inkth i illst velo ouy.
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Christmas List <3 [21st November 2007|11:20 am]
[Physical |The Library. Moorpark Co]
[Melodies |JH Sighing. XO]

 okie so heres what i want for christmas. make an anonymous comment about it and i will cross it off <3

Yum. (Most of the video games can be found at any gaming store. the stone pokemons are harder to find ><)

Video Games-

Pokemon Ruby - GBA (Toys R Us Ventura) 34.99
Pokemon Sapphire - GBA (Toys R Us Ventura/Thousand Oaks) 34.99
Pokemon Emerald - GBA (Toys R Us Thousand Oaks) 34.99

Final Fantasy I - PSP 29.99
Final Fantasy II - PSP 29.99
Disgaea: Afternoon of Darkness - PSP 39.99

Mario Party DS - DS 34.99
Super Mario Bros - DS 34.99
Final Fantasy XII: Revenant Wings - DS 39.99

Pokemon Merch-

Sleeping Pikachu Plush (Pokemon.com) 24.95

Eevee's Evolution PokeDoll Bundle (Pokemon.com) 49.95
Minun Pillow (Pokemon.com) 9.95
Plusle Pillow (Pokemon.com) 9.95
PokeDoll Lapras (Pokemon.com) 9.95
PokeDoll Parchirisu (Pokemon.com) 9.95
PokeDoll Shinx (Pokemon.com) 9.95

The Boondock Saints Collector's Editon DVD - 14.95/19.95
Bridge to Terabithia Widescreen DVD with shiny outercase- 14.95/19.95
The Breakfast Club - 14.95/19.95
Stranger than Fiction - 14.95/19.95
Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind - 14.95/19.95
O Brother, Where art Thou? - 14.95/19.95
The Aristocats (Half.com/Internet)
House Season One
House Season Two
House Season Three
My Little Pony Season One (Half.com/Internet) 29.99-39.99

Mindless Self Indulgence-
Another Mindless Rip Off
You'll Rebel to Anything
Frankenstein Girls Will Seem Strangely Sexy

Jesse McCartney -
Right Where You Want Me


Buffy the Musical: Once More with Feeling
O Brother, Where art Thou?
The Little Mermaid
The Aristocats
The Lion King
101 Dalmatians
Beauty and the Beast

yeah and thats about it for now. unless im confirmed getting a 360 then i will add xbox stuff <3

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